Friday, October 19, 2012

F*CK Cancer

Remember this post: "None of us is immune"?
In Feb 2011 my dad was diagnosed with esophageal cancer.
In Feb 2012 my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer.

Then this summer they both got a clean bill of health, so our family was finally able to CELEBRATE after many months of heartache and worry.

And then my mom started having some very odd and very worrisome symptoms in August. The doctors checked for all the usual culprits based on her symptoms. 
But they found nothing.

Then last week she had a CAT-scan so they could look a little closer at what was going on inside of her.... and on Thursday, 10/11/12, as she sat in the waiting room awaiting the news of Corrie's arrival, the phone call came with the results of her scan. 

In fact, the phone call came right after I walked into the waiting room, announcing the arrival of my precious angel.

The news was not good.
Pancreatic cancer.

Last night, Jess, Corrie and I took a road trip north to Allen, so that I could be there to go with mom and dad to her oncologist appointment today so that we could find out what can be done...  and he told us that her best hope is surgery. She will meet with the surgeon on Tuesday to find out if he thinks it's doable. All we can do now is hope...


Of course we are being positive and attempting to focus on the good....on each and every day that our family has together. 
But honestly, I am F**KING SICK of all these awful things happening to our family. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.

There are awful and evil people in the world who never encounter bad things in their lives....who never suffer through life-altering treatment plans.....who never lose a parent to a terrible disease.....who never, for one day in their lives, experience any kind of real heartache. And that is just so wrong. 
My parents are not smokers or drinkers or people who have had unhealthy lifestyles. They have NONE of the risk factors for the shit they have been forced to deal with. 

So I just don't understand why.
I am trying. But I just don't understand....

10 comments:

HOLMES said...

Oh Kelli. I am so, so sorry to hear this. I love you and all of your family.

nettielouise said...

Keep us posted. Hugs to your family right now. If I can be of any help, just let me know!

ladyfi said...

Oh Kelli - I'm so very very sad to hear this. I've never met you, but you're one of the nicest and most decent people I 'know' and you and your family deserve only good things.

PiNG aka Patti said...

Oh that is not the news you wanted at all. I am so sorry to hear this. Please let us know if there is anything we can do.

Kevin said...

Oh my god, Kelli. I am so very sorry that you all have to go through this again ... you will be in my constant thoughts and prayers ...

mommy22ss said...

Kelli, I am so sorry. Your mom and all of your family will be in my prayers. Hugs to you, my friend!

bradshaw meadows said...

Kelli, I am so sorry. Sending healing vibes and wishes to you and your beautiful family. <3

Lisbeth said...

Kelly, I'm so sorry that you last happy post is followed by this one!
Hope your mum can stay strong once again - and that you and your whole family will once again unite your love and thoughts for this ugly disease.

Hopeful wishes to you all!

H. Bratset said...

Hi,

I just recently started reading your blog and I really like it.

I'm really sorry about your mom. My brother had pancreatic cancer. I can imagine how scared you must be. They are doing a lot more research on pancreatic cancer now and there are so many more options than there were even 2 years ago, so I will be thinking about you and hoping that your mom will get the best care and beat this! Here is a good place to start to find support and find out about clinical trials, etc. http://www.pancan.org/

I can imagine how frustrating it is when everyone in the family seems like they are getting sick and you just think, why? I lost my dad 9 months before my brother died, and 2 months before my dad died my sister was diagnosed with breast cancer. It sucks so bad and I too have thought, why? We are good people, we take care of ourselves, wth??? I feel for you so much and am wishing you and your family well. My heart goes out to you. Try if you can to make sure that you take time to care of yourself so you can stay strong. I agree whole 100%, F**K Cancer!!

ViVi said...

I was very sorry to read about this. Your mother will be in my prayers.